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compete?
its that time of the year when everyone’s gearing up for tournament. sure, i’ve had my fair share of tournaments and this isnt new to me. i still get jitters, i still try to beat the stuffing out of the pads if i could at training, i still worry about how it will go. but [...]
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drive
i dont know if its true or just a false observation of mine, but i have found that i am starting to hate down-time – or idle time. times when im not doing anything productive ie workout/exercise/sport, school work, or earning side income. im not materialistic or anything but i found that i have wasted [...]
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memories of civilizations
i am so enamored by the thought of pursuing ancient history, i spent some time scouring the internet for the best degree options available. obviously, if iwere to pursue history seriously, singapore is not an option because of its limited scope in terms of history. i really am fickle minded, i reluctantly did Arts at [...]
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fire
fire. when two people challenged me on the same day, fire burned within me. i think i am driven by anger and resentment, thats funny. the same day i turned up for trng in which only 3 of us turned up for; i didnt realise that i had overcome my inertia and forced myself to get [...]
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what
it’s just a flurry of chaos that you have no part in and when the dust has settled, you realise you were unimportant all the time events took place. which makes you question your significance to another person. somehow being a ‘shoulder to cry on’ sounds cliche and a good camouflage for actually being practically [...]
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embrace
im feeling light, because im reminded once more of the things and people im grateful for in this life. and also, strangely, reminded of the Prophet’s kindness which resulted from a casual chat over a History Channel programme about him. I remember so clearly that Islamic history was the only subject i had real interest [...]
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not about
being the lousy athlete that i am, i was doing a lousy job at something simple. like shuttle runs over 30m distances. that was supposed to be so easy. and yet i was giving excuses for it, and i had the nerve to feel terrible about it. “it’s not about being able to do it [...]
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historic
wow, someone actually has a photo from back in 2003. this is taken in padepokan, jakarta when i was in the national team then. can you spot me?? lol.
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some things dont fade
some things dont fade away with time. like how i get excited to meet you, or when you call. like how i can still blush when you say sweet things to me. and how i always feel sad whenever we part for home.. even after these years, certain things still feel as sweet as the [...]
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locus of control
marketing students would know what locus of control means. it describes a person’s extent to which he believes that outcomes are in his control (or not). people with internal locus of control believe that everything (or almost everything) is due to their own undoing and do not often blame others for mishappenings or bad luck. [...]
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